...The Turning Point

This is a very important post. It marks the turning point in my Poker Career. In the past couple of days I have had Poker on my mind. I have been thinking a lot about my relationship with Poker and how it's going to affect my life.
I started playing Poker about two years ago. It wasn't until May this year (4 months ago) that I started to take it more seriously and started this blog. I started the blog with a 450 BR on Pokerstars only, and as of today I have increased it to a 4500+ overall BR, and have cashed out at least 1500 in between.
In this process, I have shown glimpses of greatness: Starting as a player who sticks to the 9man SNG because I couldn't handle the cash games, I conquered my fear and made my run at .25/.50 cash games to make 2000. When I signed up with Pokeroom, I made an amazing run at SNGs, after 67 games my ROI is still 63% with a total profit of 856. I faced a serious slump following the end of my Bonuswhore project with Pokeroom. But in the past two weeks, I had bounced back furiously. I made over 1000 this week, and over 2000 for the last two weeks. I have shown that I can consistantly beat the .50/1 NL tables on Stars.
I played without fear...like a true champion.

So why all this talk?
I have discovered something...
I am on the verge of greatness, the only thing standing in between me and greatness is my fear for failure. It is this little guy in me that hesitates before the start of each session.... that still gets a little nervous about ending in the red... the little guy that decides to play video games because he feels that he isn't quite ready to play poker.
I have been in constant battle with this little guy. But lets be fair, the little guy isn't a bad guy... he is smart... he would rather be safe then sorry... he keeps me from blowing my BR... he makes me look both ways twice before crossing the street.
However, there is a fine line between being a scared and being safe. There is also a fine line between being reckless and being a genius. True genius has no fear... and true passion has no hesitation.
What am I talking about?
I am talking about young people who dropped out of college to play Poker full time... They KNEW they could beat the game, and wasn't affraid to make that leap... wasn't affraid of accepting their destiny.
I am talking about the people who pounds in those hands day and night, playign as many tables as they can, as many hours as they can... They knew that they had a gift for beating the game, and that gift would help make their life more secure. So they didn't repress this talent, but they allowed it to flourish... pushed their limit... and reached as high as they could.
They knew that the only way to realize their potential was to give their all in being a poker pro.
This is not gambling... this is hardwork, and passion, and greatness.
I am no longer going to hesitate. I am going to go about this full-heartedly. I am going to be GREAT. I am going to ride This Online-Poker phenomenon as long as it is available to me. And I'm gonna RIDE it HARD.
Sure I am going to lose some, but I'm no longer going to let a bad streak make me pussy out. Greatness has no hesitation... and from now on there is no looking back.
Starting tomorrow I am going to pound in these hands and hours... a lot lot more then I have ever done before.
I'm bringing the HARDCORE back into HardcoreBO. HardcoreBo knows no fear.

Ok thats it... no more talk... from now on its strictly business.